Have I gone completely mad, or is the world just mad at me? Trapped in this echo chamber of regret and apathy, I hide from my disguise. The face in the mirror lies, fueling delusion I'm losing my mind, deprived of my drive to be choosing the light. Don't think I've forgotten. You're fucking dead inside. You're fucking rotten. This one goes out to everyone who trusts in you, to those who keep in touch with you, and all those fucking drugs you do. The names they gave you stuck like glue. Don't think I've forgotten. You're fucking dead inside. You're fucking rotten. Don't think I've forgotten. You're fucking dead inside. You're fucking rotten. But I'd fight for you. I compromised what I believed was right, for you. I'd fight for you. I compromised what I believed was right, for you. Fallen from the angels' grace, me and Satan face to face. In this grave I stay awake. I will not be saved today. Changes must be made with haste, I cannot just lay and wait. Changes must be made with haste. Praying for these chains to break. Have I gone completely mad? Have I gone completely mad? Don't think I've forgotten. You're fucking dead inside. You're fucking rotten. Don't think I've forgotten. You're fucking dead inside. Don't think I've forgotten. You're fucking dead inside. You're fucking rotten.

This is not a call for attention or a cry for help. This is acceptance. The truth, objective, programmed to destroy myself. I've been woke so long I'm tweaking. My heart and mind are disagreeing. Seeing is believing, but looks can be deceiving. So Wake up. This is the part thats alarming, It's the citizens at war with the bipartisan army. If we stopped fighting for a second to acknowledge just how sick it is we'll see that they divide us cause our strength is in our differences. No surrender. No retreat. No salvation. No fucking peace. No surrender. No retreat. No salvation. No fucking peace. These motherfuckers have a plan to divide, to have you question if, without them, can the planet survive. The food you eat is fake the only thing they're planting is lies and happiness is advertised as something vanity buys. The Vatican are fucking hypocrites, abandoning Christ to whore him out for profit after they rebranded him white. They'll convince you that your God is just a man in the sky then paint him as a fucking terrorist and hand you a knife. These motherfuckers have a plan to divide, to have you question if, without them, can the planet survive. The food you eat is fake the only thing they're planting is lies and happiness is advertised as something vanity buys. The Vatican are fucking hypocrites, abandoning Christ to whore him out for profit after they rebranded him white. They'll convince you that your God is just a man in the sky then paint him as a fucking terrorist and hand you a knife. Faced with a choice to evolve or repeat the lesson: You will learn or you will suffer. Faced with a choice to evolve or repeat the lesson: You will learn or you will suffer.

Sick and tired; of these status questions and social norms, screaming till my throat is sore and tearing holes in all my vocal chords, coming to in Rochester confused so far from all thats real, wallet full of foreign bills and pockets full of orange pills. When the voice inside my head told me hit the connect, I listened. Been disconnected watching me from a perspective shifted.I go by Bad Luck, its ironic I neglect suspicion. Funny, I'm in jeopardy and I don't think of questioning it. Behind my retinas thinking of dissent's forbidden. Got no clue what the fuck it is but I accept the mission. The irony it kills me, all this intellect I'm given and all I can do is watch while I go make our next decision like... I'm gettin fed up with their endless whispering. Its mutiny, what happened? Demons found the captain of the vessel missing. Must be MK Ultra, who's in charge of my suggestive thinking? All this time spent playing God but can't perform an exorcism. Jesus Christ. If I had that power, I would exercise it. My light's bright inside but nothing crosses the event horizon...

When I'm thinking in all caps and the walls start to talk back, I'm aware its a short track to a nap on the morgue rack. This isn't life. I will not grieve for this. I am a sinner. I am nothing. I'm a piece of shit. I give up. Sick of hiding from the light in the sky. I'm tired of idlily existing like I'm trying to die. Grown accustomed to the taste of dirt, waste of worth, my headspace gets worse. Pain seems to be the only fucking way I learn. I've made my maker make me hurt. When I'm thinking in all caps and the walls start to talk back, I'm aware its a short track to a nap on the morgue rack. Too many years of my life gone the shit and I admit that I almost quit. I'm a loser. I'm a masochist. Everyday nothing changes. I keep doing this to myself. I'm the only one that can save me. I'm the only one that can save me. Let them turn out the lights meant to guide me, I refuse to abandon the plan. I know the abyss like the back of my hand. Let them turn out the lights meant to guide me, I refuse to abandon the plan. I know the abyss like the back of my hand. Nothing is fine. Nothings all right. Bury me beneath the dirt. Show me what I'm really worth. Try to take my pain away just to come another day. Sick of hiding from the light in the sky. I'm tired of idlily existing like I'm trying to die. Sick of hiding from the light in the sky. I'm tired of idlily existing like I'm trying to die.

I'd tell you the truth if I wasn't so ashamed of what burdens me. I manifested a monster by meditating on my insecurities. Hate me if it helps you heal. Hurt me if it helps you heal. Hate me if it helps you heal. Hurt me if it helps you heal. What's it mean? No matter what the means, it seems like every fucking end's dead. When i said I could fix this I didn't know what amend meant. It starts with with admittance and it ends with acceptance. It begins with forgiveness and it ends with redemption. Hate me if it helps you heal. Hurt me if it helps you heal. Hate me if it helps you heal. Hurt me if it helps you heal. I've only ever had a way with words to find the words to get my way, and if you hold it to a mirror than the image that a man protects might break. I'm sorry mama, I should never have expected you to bear the depths of me. I only ever put my hands around your neck in hopes you'd spare what's left of me. I believe it now, should I have seen it then? Where did my demons end, and I begin? I believe it now, should I have seen it then? Where did my demons end, and I begin? So what if you can see through me, then you can't see what's inside me. Fuck.

I know you're nothing special. I know you'd love to change. I've felt that numbing pain when every day's the fucking same. I know you're nothing special. I know you'd love to change. I've felt that numbing pain when every day's the fucking same. They never get it, so whats the point? Addicted to chaos. In love with the noise. One with my turmoil. This curse is a gift as my self-serving ways they gave birth to this list. A list of things I can never forget. A list of things I will always regret. A list of things I've been trying to fight because becoming your darkness means you die in the light. I know you because you hurt like me. You care too much about them all to see your worth like me. You'll go it on your own and wind up in the dirt like me. It's fuck the world because you'd rather hurt than hurt like me. If there is a light why do I feel like I'm stuck in the shade? If there is a devil He will know my fucking name. Pushed to sedition, tunnel vision becomes affliction. What happens when you can't escape to your head, and risking everything for more becomes the safest of bets? When all's said and done and I've wronged my rights, there's no fair ones in love and life. So hold on to your happy 'cause nothings for sure when the poison's what makes up the cure. I know you because you hurt like me. You care too much about them all to see your worth like me. You'll go it on your own and wind up in the dirt like me. It's fuck the world because you'd rather hurt than hurt like me. I know you're nothing special. I know you'd love to change. I've felt that numbing pain when every day's the fucking same. The first rule of misery: there's no unwilling participants. The first rule of misery: there's no unwilling participants. The first rule of misery: there's no unwilling participants. The first rule of misery: there's no unwilling participants. I know you're nothing special. I know you'd love to change. I've felt that numbing pain when every day's the fucking same. I know you're nothing special. I know you'd love to change. I've felt that numbing pain when every day's the same. When all's said and done and I've wronged my rights, there's no fair ones in love and life. So hold on to your happy 'cause nothings for sure when the poison's what makes up the cure.

Close your eyes. What do you see? The only difference between you and me. Feel the silence begin to breathe, your only weakness is your disbelief. Right now, this is all I know. If I don't hold on then it all might go. Right now a place thats secure is assured. I will always afford you a port in the storm. Right now this is do or die. See through the illusion, the truth's inside. Right now I will ignore the past because there's nothing there. Either you're unaware or you don't fucking care. I am the silence. I am the noise .I am the blinding light. I am the void. Right now. The place is here. With faith in myself I will face my fears. Right now is a gift that I get to explore. Now I am stronger than ever before. Right now I hope you're hearing me. This isn't just some conspiracy. Right now I will ignore the past because there's nothing there. Either you're unaware or you don't fucking care. I am the silence. I am the noise. I am the blinding light. I am the void. Right now. Right now. Right now. Right now. Close your eyes. What do you see? The only difference between you and me. Feel the silence begin to breathe, your only weakness is your disbelief. I am the silence. I am the noise. I am the blinding light. I am the void.

A parody of life, you woke up feeling stuck today. It must be torture thinking what you do and love's the same. Alive but just in name, such an unlucky game: Don't change a fucking thing then bitch how you see nothing change. You'll traverse the path of hurt infinitely. Someone loves you, but it sure as shit isn't me. Mirror mirror on the wall, show me what i want to see. Mirror mirror on the wall, show me anything but me. The marvels of modern technology, you've got them all convinced that you're exactly who you want to be. One denominator that your problems have in common seems to be your fucked philosophy, a self fulfilling prophecy. You'll traverse the path of hurt infinitely. Someone loves you, but it sure as shit isn't me. Mirror mirror on the wall, show me what i want to see. Mirror mirror on the wall, show me anything but me. A parody of life, you woke up feeling stuck today. It must be torture thinking what you do and love's the same. Alive but just in name, such an unlucky game: Don't change a fucking thing then bitch how you see nothing change. Mirror mirror on the wall, show me what I want to see.